Professor Alan Gillis Inaugural Lecture

Recording of Professor Alan Gillis's Inaugural Lecture

So  I  think  we're  about  to  find  out just  what  it  is  about  Alan's  poetry, which  has  attracted  such  praise, such  a  plaudits  from so  many  sources,  including  Van  Morrison. So  I  hope  you'll  all  join  me  in welcoming  to  the  stage, Professor  Alan  Gilles. Hello  there.  And  thank  you  very  much,  Alex. Thank  you  very  much  all  for  coming  night. It's  called  all  night,  and it's  the  end  of  a  long  semester, so  it's  usually  it's a  relief  to  see  somebody  came  out, so  thank  you  for  being  here. I'm  going  to  start  with the  first  poem  with  the  first  book, which  is  a  long  time  ago  and  I. The  ulster  way  is a  continuous  pathway  set around  the  edges  of  Northern  Ireland. More  than  600  miles  invented  to get  people  outdoors  out  into  the  fresh  air. I  was  a  typical  thing if  you're  driving  along  a  road, you'll  see  a  sign  for  the  ulster  way, and  I'll  be  pointing  directly to  a  hedge  or a  ditch  or  off  the  edge  of  a  cliff. You  think. This  is  a  poem  about  being  scared of  cos  and  it's  called  the  ulster  way. This  is  not  about  burns  or  hedges. There  will  be  no  gourse. You  will  not  notice the  ceaseless  photosynthesis  or the  dead  trees,  thousand  fingers. The  trunks  in  humanity  writhing  with texture  as  you  will not  be  passing  into  farmland. Nor  will  you  be  set  upon by  cattle  Engle  buried, haunting  and  hunting  with  their  eyes. Their  shocking  opals,  graving  you,  hoovering, and  scooping  you,  full  of a  witness  that  seeves you  through  the  abattoir  hill  scape. The  Runnels  slaber  through  dark  grass, sweating  for  the  night  that  will purple  to  a  love  bitten  bruise. All  this  is  in  your  head. If  you  walk,  don't  walk  away  in  silence, under  the  stars  ice  fires  of violence  to  the  waters  darken  strand. For  this  is  not  about  horizons or  their  curving  limitations. This  is  not  about  the  rhythm  of  a  song  line. There  are  other  paths  to  follow. Everything  is  about  you. Now,  listen.  C  heers. So  most  of  the  day  job, as  you  know,  involves  talking  about  poetry. I  hope  you  don't  mind  have  chosen not  to  do  that  tonight, but  just  rather  talk  about  poems. Going  to  read  a  few  of  the  damn  things. But  a  a  few  thoughts  are  probably  in  order. Sometimes  I  am  asked  if  and  I, being  a  critic  of  poetry helps  the  writing  of  poetry. And  I  always  say,  I  don't  know. Py. I  suspect  it  helps enormously  in  certain  respects. I  assume  the  critic  part  of  my  brain  and the  poetry  part  of  my  brain  do meet  up  at  night  when  I'm asleep  and  hatch  plans  and  have  a  gossip. But  I  try  to  ensure  their  congress remains  sort  of  submerged. For  all  the  wonders  of  poetry expertise  in  the  academy, and  for  all  that  I  do  work  hard  to try  and  contribute  a  small  part  to  that. The  truth  is  when  it  comes  to  writing  a  poem, you  never  really  know  what  you're  doing. No,  you  know,  not  the  workshop  shop  stage, but  the  bit  before  that  when  you sit  down  to  a  blank  page. More  specifically,  if  you  do  sit  down  and  you write  a  poem  and  you  think you  do  know  what  you're  doing, it's  very,  very  unlikely  that you'll  write  anything  decent. I  don't  really  know  why  that  is, but  that's  the  way  it  works. So  one  is  always  trying  to  understand and  learn  and  develop  ideas. But  with  poetry,  in  my  experience, some  of  the  oldest  cliches just  can't  be  beaten. My  two  favourite  crust the  truisms  about  poetry, both  come  from  Northern  Ireland, bandied  about  by  my  elders  back  in  the  day. The  first  came  from  John  Hewett  who  claimed, if  you  write  poetry,  it's  your  own  fault. The  second  came  from Michael  Longley  who  said, If  I  knew  where  poems came  from,  I'd  go  there. It  is  a  large  part  of  being a  poet  that  sometimes  the  poems  don't  come. The  same  n,  I'm  going  to  read  some  new  stuff, mixed  in  with  some  old  stuff. But  the  new  stuff  is  fresh  enough  that I'm  still  amazed  that  it  exists  at  all. The  truth  is,  I  had  a  really  stinking  run for  several  years,  not  that  long  ago. We're  trying  to  write  a  poem Samed  like  wading  through  treacle. At  one  stage,  trying  to  get  things  cooking, I  booked  myself  a  writing  trip, as  you  do  to  Northern  Ireland for  a  use  of  a  caravan. But  when  I  got  there,  I  felt the  rot  more  keenly  than  ever. I  just  couldn't  write  a  line  to  save  myself. I  realised  it  was  probably  trying  too hard  and  overcomplicating  things. So  I  tried  an  exercise where  I  thought  I'd  just write  about  something  plain and  normal  and  something that  was  in  front  of  me. I  happened  to  have  a  p  of tomatoes  out  of  the  fridge. So  my  eyes  fell  in  that and  said,  that's  what  we're  going  to  do. We're  going  to  forget  everything  else, and  just  write  a  poem  about  a  tomato. The  long  days,  The  long  nights. I  sat  and  looked  at the  tomato  and  tried  to  have  tomato  we feelings  and  took  notes  and  it was  really  useless  and a  colossal  waste  of  time. I  ended  up  feeling  a  complete  idiot, stupid  poetry,  stupid  *******  tomatoes. I  drove  up  to  the  ferry  to  come  home, very  much  think  of  the  whole  writing  poetry, part  of  my  life  was  completely  finished. But  on  the  boat,  I went  out  to  the  deck  to  look miserably  out  to  sea. When  a  very  strange  looking  blue came  up  to  me  and  started  chatting  away. As  sometimes  happens,  when  you're  in  transit, the  guy  basically  spilled  his life  story  within  2  minutes. He  lived  in  Belfast, but  had  been  raised  in  Glasgow. As  fondest  childhood  memories  were hanging  out  with his  grandfather  in  an  allotment. His  grandfather  died  during  the  pandemic, and  the  guy  was  on  his  way  over  to  sort of  sort  out  the  allotment,  as  it  were. That  so  happens  that  the  Grands  pride and  joy  or  tomatoes, which  he  grew  every  year  in  a  greenhouse. And  the  bloke  started  talking  unprompted  at length  and  with  great  passion  A  tomatoes. He  said  that  since  his  granddad  had  died, he  couldn't  look  at  the  tomato without  becoming  overwhelmed  with something  like  joy  and  grief  simultaneously. And  when  we  parted  ways. After  about  just  a  few  minutes, you  know,  he  shouted out  to  me  across  the  deck. A  big  man  grabbed  life  by  the  tomatoes. So  it  was  clear  to  me  that  I had  been  visited  by  the  Muse. In  the  shape  of  Billy  from Govin  it  was  a  gift  that  I  had  been  offered. And  this  is  a  poem  called  the  Tomato. Sorry.  I  juicy  tomato  grows  red, but  not  quite  red  as  tomato  ketch  up. Off  the  vine,  is  it dead  or  just  beginning  to  die. It's  a  big,  ripe  juicy  tomato,  anyhow, Sculcus,  and  uneven  scarlet with  olive  hints,  tinged  yellows. It's  watery  pulp,  seeded  liquid, swollen  in  filmy  skin. The  way  it  catches  light, it  looks  like  light  gleams  from  within. Tomatoes  were  tastier  at  yours, where  I  tied  along  through allotment  rows  to  the  sun  gilt of  your  greenhouse  windows, each  year  from  nothing  to squelchs  s  bites  of  tomatoe  Wow. Now,  you're  gone. I  see  1  million  jars  of tomato  sauce  on  shelves, vats  of  ooze, dismal  dinner  bowls,  mouth  slp  stains. Here  is  plenty  with  rot  in  it. A  shovel  leans  against  the  unlatched  door, drones  of  green  fly  in  the  late  sun. And  back  among  the  greenhouse  rows where  you  want  sign  to  your  grove  eyes. Las,  shall  I  go  with  you  to  the  meadows? And  here  it  comes  again  that  tingle  in the  tongue  for  a  taste  of  another  salt  tied, sour,  vibrant,  juice  burst  red  sunrise. It  is  fantastic  with  male. Dusk  falls  on  the  allotments. Sing  for  your  life. Sing  for  a  tomato. Way  before  coming  over  to  live  here, one  of  the  main  images  I would  have  associated  with  Edinburgh, as  I'm  sure  most  people  do, with  the  two,  you  know,  iconic  bridges, the  firth  And  the  Newer  third  bridge still  takes  a  bit  of  getting  used  to. A  couple  of  summers  ago. Just  to  get  out  of  the  city  on  a  nice  day. Rose  and  I  drove  to  Fife, to  go  out  for  a  spin, get  some  fish  and  chips. And  n  route  to  Fife, whatever  head  space  I  was  in, I  was  really  taken  ab  by  how  impressive. I  felt  the  new  bridge  was. I  think  we  can  get  very  blase about  such  things  far  too  quickly, and  it  may  not  be the  biggest  bridge  in  the  world, but  it  is  nonetheless  enormous. It's  a  quite  awesome  feat  of engineering  and  design  and a  big  imposing  new  base  that's  now indelibly  part  of the  landscape  of  this  place. So  I  thought  I'd  try  a  poem  about  it. This  is  called  the  Queens  fury  Bridge. Dwarfed  by  the  construction. I  drive  towards  this  big  new  bridge. Is  cathedral  of  gleam, a  vast  suspended  gesture  through  the  air. Even  this  approach  road  is  so  large  scale. I  feel  I'm  driving  a  miniature  to  car. Half  expecting  a  gigantic child's  hand  will  loom down  to  grab  and raise  my  honda  up  to  its  batific, laughing  megapace  in  the  sky. And  each  coming  glimpse  of the  bridge  brings  a  lift  and expectation  of  the  Firth  expansion and  Fifes  green  coast. For  these  days  in  the  city  have left  me  feeling  like  one  of those  gratuitous  extended  scenes in  the  box  where some  guy  punches  and punches  and  punches  a  face  to  death. Now,  I'm  finally  crossing  the  bridge. I  am  high,  if  not  free, above  water  that  looks  high  I imagine  the  mind  might look  if  it  were  visible. A  sky  coloured  brain  swell of  wave  glint  and  shadow, all  ambivalent  surface and  unseen  depth  currents. Immense  inner  convections  that could  arise  if  I  arised, swallow  the  coast  and  crush  this  bridge. I  can't  wait  to  drive  by fifes  warehouses  and  housing  schemes with  tricycles  in  the  lawn, oven  chips  in  the  oven, bay  windows,  looking  out  to sea  waves,  purple  milk  vetch, creeping  buttercup,  common  self  heel and  oil  rigs  that  straddle  dream  blue  waters. Yet  I'm  still  crossing  the  bridge  as  the wind  pummels  and  pummels  and  pummels. Traffic  is  fast,  yet  this  feels  like  a  hue. I'm  crossing  the  bridge  towards fish  and  chips  in  East  Nuk. Blind  curves  in  the  road, roding  shores  that  leave  me failing  like  the  misted  salt  spawn  of waves  as  they  smash and  smash  and  smash  upon  rocks, sprayed  into  raw  air. Traffic  fuming  through  this  glittering  metal thrust  into  the  firth  that  I'm  almost  across, hoping  something  might  come. Some  new  thought,  better  feeling. For  the  mind  is  the  sea. The  mind  is  mountains,  rivers, and  the  great  Earths  moving and  suspended  until  it's  not. Okay,  I've  lost  my  set  list already.  Let's  see. Alright,  I'm  gonna  stick  with  bridges. Um,  L  et's  see. In  Belfast,  the  last  bridge  over  the  waggon, just  before  its  mouth  meets  Belfast. Lo  used  to  be home  to  a  huge  flock  of  starlings. I  don't  know  if  they're  still  there. But  in  my  memory,  there were  a  regular  feature. And  you  know  the  way  flock  of  starlings  makes it's  crazy  sort  of  patterns  in  the  air. It  was  always  mesmerising  to  see this  huge  we  its  wonders. One  of  the  most  beautiful  things  ever, I  think. So  this  poem  pictures  them  at tight  in  a  kind  of  red  pink  evening  sky. Against  the  backdrop  of  the  grimy  city, somewhere  about  this  time  of the  year  where  it's  getting  dark. If  you  write  poems  that  are  miserable  enough, they  always  stay  relevant. No. This  is  a  poem  written  in  2006  about feeling  upset  and  anxious about  the  state  of  the  world. I  know  it  was  2006  because  this  was, in  fact,  the  first  poem  I wrote  as  a  citizen  of  Edinburgh. I  remember  sitting  writing it  with  a  lovely  view  from the  eighth  floor  of  what's  now called  40  George  Square, where  I  had  been  newly  installed. And  there  was  a  gorgeous  red  pink  sort of  sky  in  the  evening. But  I  was  feeling  overwhelmed  by  the  sense  of the  broader  world  around me  was  going  to  rack  and  rain. From  the  vantage  point  of  2024, I  hear  people  talking  about  that  time, the  naughties  as  if  it  was some  kind  of  golden  age. But  this  is  what  happens. I'll  read  this  now  for  anyone who's  feeling  upset  and  anxious. A  the  state  of the  world  at  the  present  moment. If  anyone  in the  audience  isn't  feeling  anxious, the  state  of  the  world, I'll  ask  you  to  please share  your  medication  amongst the  rest  of  us  evenly. But  otherwise,  we've  got  the  starlings. This  is  called  Lag  and  Weir. The  way  things  are  going, there'll  be  no  quick  fix. No  turning  back. The  way  that  flock  of starlings  squirrels  back  in  itself, then  swerves  forward, swabbing  and  scrawling the  shell  pink  buff  sky. While  I  stand  in  two  minds  on  the  bridge, leaning  over  the  fudged  river  that  se  its dark  way  to  open harbours  and  the  glistering  sea. Like  flack  from  fire, a  blizzard  of  a  vacues, that  hula  hooping  sky  swarm  of starlings  swoops  and  loops  the  dog  rose  sky. Well,  anyway,  I  look the  writings  on  the  wall. I  watch  the  hurley  burd  humdrum  traffic  belch to  a  stop,  fogging,  clacking, charring  the  clotted  air,  making  it  clear, things  are  going  to  get  a  whole lot  worse  before  they  get  better. That  flickered  fluttered  hurry  scurry of  starling  sweeps  left, then  swishes  right  through  the  violet  sky. Well,  I  huddle  and huff  with  a  dove  in  one  ear,  saying, look  the  other  way, a  hawk  in  the  other  brain, self  righteous  fury. It's  hard  not  to  turn back  to  a  time  when  one  look  at  you, and  I  knew  things  were  going  to  get  a whole  lot  better  before  they'd  get  worse. That  hue  and  cry. The  hurricanes  of  starlings  swish  and  swirl their  fractals  over  towers, hotels,  hospitals,  flyovers, catamarans,  city  dwellers, passers  through  who  might  as  well take  a  leap  and  try following  after  that  scatter  wailing circus  of  shadows  as  slowly turn  and  make  their  dark  way  homeward, never  slowing,  not  knowing the  way  things  are  going. T.  H. These  early  poems  really  do  feel  like they're  written  by  Somebody else  entirely,  I'll  have  to  say. It's  a  weird  feeling. I  got  vague  memories of  the  person  who  wrote  them. I've  also  a  sense  you wouldn't  want  to  know  that  guy  too  well. I  do  remember  I've taken  very  seriously  the  idea about  writing  the  ills of  the  time  about  Northern  Ireland, the  troubles  and  all  of  that. But  also,  you  really  didn't  want  to  be sort  defined  or  dominated  by  that. So  I  thought,  well, what  else  have  I  got  experience  of? I  also  wrote  lots  of poems  about  being  an  rsul. There  is  a  poem  called,  don't  you? I  was  working  as a  waitress  in  a  cocktail  bar. That  much  is  true. But  even  then  I  knew  I'd  find  myself  behind the  wheel  of  a  large  automobile or  in  a  beautiful  house, asking  myself,  Well, I  sweet  dreams  are  made  of  these, why  don't  I  travel  the  world  in the  seven  seas  to io  and  dance  there  in  the  sand. Just  like  a  river  twisting through  the  dusty  land. For  though  you  thought you  were  my  number  one, this  girl  did  not  want  to have  a  gun  for  hire. No  bright  spark  who was  just  dancing  in  the  dark. You  were  working  as  a  waitress  in a  cocktail  bar  when  I  met  you. And  I  believed  in  miracles. Every  step  you  took  I  was  watching  you. I  asked  for  your  name, tipped  you  again  and  again. And  you  said,  Don't  Don't  you  want me  to  fetch  you a  drink  that  would  turn  your  pink  mouth  blue. Don't  you  think  this  tenth  tiny  Chaser is  ten  times  bigger  than  you. Don't  you  talk  about  places  and  people. You  will  never  know.  Don't  you symbolise  femininity  by  use of  the  letter,  Oh. And  I  said,  Don't  you  want  me, baby.  Don't  you  want  me. All  right,  gonna  I'm gonna  spring  one  on  M  bom  here. Um,  My  mom  was the  youngest  of  a  great  quantity  of  siblings. So  I  grew  up  with  lots  and  lots  of  aunties. The  way  that  works,  many  of her  siblings  were considerably  older  than  herself, and  they  in  turn  had  lots  of  children. So  when  I  was  small, my  mom  had  loads  of  nieces, but  because  they  were  so much  older  than  me,  I  called  them, you  know,  my  aunties  rather  than  my  cousins. So  I  really  did  have  a  huge  surplus of  seemingly  unaccountable  aunties. Most  of  them  lived  in  the  country, many  in  farms,  my  mom and  dad  are  from  County  Tyrone. I  confess,  but  I  was  small. I  didn't  really  like  travelling  to  visit the  country  relatives  and  took  you  away  from, you  know,  your  mates  and  from  the  TV and  football  and  all  of  that  stuff. You  have  to  sit  and  listen to  dreary  old  people  talk. But  Away  all  things  pass. Thankfully, some  of  my  aunties  are  still  with  us, but  others  have  moved  on, and  that  world  of  farmhouse  kitchens and  so  forth  is  sadly  gone. This  is  a  wee  poem  called  the  aunties. Cured  attock  infested  the  kitchen  where I'd  sit  at  the  edge  of my  ants  with  their  thistle  hair, whatn  bread,  and  breath  of  Benson  and  hedges, listening  to  atrocities  in a  shortwave  radio,  stroke, bomb,  gun, cancer,  A  were  the  same  to  them  with their  litanies  of  the  dead  dying  and those  struggling  to  care for  all  still  needing  to  be  cared  for. Sure,  you'll  sar  the  milk  wat  face. One  aunt  tease  me, and  the  rest  yacked  and  cackled  as the  sun  crashed  through,  cutlery  sparkled. And  the  room  flashed Da  daffodil  butter  gold, egg,  yolk,  brilliant. Then  one  by  one,  my  auntie's  left. All  right.  In  my  experience, it's  quite  difficult  to  write poems  about  Edinburgh. The  place  is  already  so  saturated  in its  own  image  instead  of dripping  with  heritage  industry and  all  the  rest  of  it. But  I've  given  it  a  go  over  time, I'll  try  a  few  of  these  out  for  you  now. I  think  most  people  here are  citizens  of  the  time. If  anybody  is,  just visiting  and  hasn't  yet  seen  this. One  of  the  remarkable  things  about Edinburgh  is  its  fog. I  sometimes  envelops  the  place. It  really  is  something.  I  remember even  before  living  here. I  was  aware  that  there's  some  kind of  unreal  aspect  to  this. I  was  over  from  Belfast  for  a  gig  one  night. I  was  walking  back  to  my  hotel  in the  early  hours.  A  thick  Mr. Came  down  with  this  immense  speed. I  was  walking  through  the  meadows. There's  nobody  else  around. And  it  really,  really  just  looked  like, you  know,  a  itch  effect from  a  hammer  horror  film. I  thought  I'd  walked  on  to  the  set  of, you  know,  a  meat  lo  video  or  something. But  the  best  thing  was  the  next  morning. I  met  up  with  some  locals. What  about  that  fog  'cause  I'd  really never  seen  a  fog  like  this  before. And  they  said  somewhat  indignantly.  What  fog? There's  no  fog.  That  was  a  arr. And  you  know,  the  relish  and  pride  in the  local  term  was something  I  really  empathise  with, and  Har  really  is  a  better  word  than  miss. So  this  is  a  poem  called  H  ar. See  how  you  feel. Once  I  saw  nothing, but  weak  pesight  on a  tattoo  of  blue,  grey,  and  grey, blue,  bleak  stone, black  stone,  bletched  sandstone. I  saw  buildings  of flue  grey  granite  loom  over paving  flags  of  bulge beneath  a  sky  of  cold  porridge. The  city  looked  encrypted. Tall  buildings  were  rows  of crypts  raised  high  on  blunt  force. Pitch  your  head  against  the  surface  of Edinburgh  and  your  skull  will  split. I  saw  a  demented  gulls  slice  of meat  fat  pizza  fall  from  the  air  onto a  cardboard  mattress  and  stained  clump  of sleeping  bag  outside a  letting  agency  on  Clark  Street. I  saw  an  upcomer posting  updates  from  his  run  through Hollyood  Park  with smart  filtered  panoramic  shots of  the  city  captured, Hashtag,  this  place  is  great. I  saw  a  local  and  puff  jacket with  paper  mache  skin, knocking  her  head  off a  pharmacy  door,  muttering,  ****  this. ****,  ****,  ****  you,  ****  off. Then  things  turned  grim. Streets  loomed. The  way  the  mind  can  cloud  and  memories vanish  as  the  air thickened  to  virtual  mushroom. A  thick  har  began  to doom  scroll  over  the  pilts of  Arthur's  seat  to swallow  parliament  dynamic Earth  southside  Morden in  flumes  of  virus  grey  shadow. Some  retrogothic  filmmaker would  have  paid  1  million to  catch  it  spectral  fingers groping  through  the  meadows. I  saw  a  child  pointing, Look  at  this  as  the  fog rubbed  against  her  flat  window  while an  elderly  couple  at  the  window below  were  deleted  by  the  uncoiling  mist. I  could  hear  unseen  buses  drive  as  if ferryboats  chugging  in a  cosmic  ladle  of  unspeakable  sip, faint  lanterns  through a  fog  that  seemed  unalive. It  felt  like  hard  things  were  feather blown  through  a  Nimbo  stratus  of  dream, banks,  firms,  startups,  statues, blipped  in  a  continuous  ether. I  saw  each  building  was  a  vessel, a  drift  in  an  ocean  of  haze. Edinburgh,  a  ghost  fleet  of  container  ships, carriers  of  counted  souls. I  could  see  nothing  is  out there  to  separate  us from  the  infinite  void  of  space, not  bricks,  steel,  concrete,  but  atmosphere. I  could  see  that  each  room, each  layer  is  a  nest  of  fragile  bones, breaths,  skin  types,  needs, body  reeks,  regrets, cells  at  the  mercy  of  the  air. I  could  see  how  truly  we  share our  element  with  the  dead  in  limbo. How  this  total  cloud  blinds all  here  in  a  womb  of  haze  rain. The  walls  like  pulsing  membranes, where  I  try  to  find  my  way  home through  the  reek  and  fire  in  these  stones. I  stick  with  Edinburg. Again,  for  anyone  visiting who  just  arrived  in  September, you'll  be  looking  forward  to  sticking around  for  the  festival season  in  August,  I'm  sure. It's  obviously  a  big  selling  point of  the  city. Personally,  I  stay  completely  away. I  can't  handle  cbs  people. So  this  is  an  old  mo  poem. It  focuses  on  what  I  take  to  be a  universal  truth  of the  Edinburgh  Festival  year  by  year, at  least  in  my  own  mind. On  the  opening  day  of  the  festival, it  starts  to  rain, and  it  inevitably  chucks  down  for weeks  constantly  until  it's  all  over, and  then  the  sun  comes  out  again. This  poem  features  a  cameo  appearance from  Vincent  over  here, but  when  he  was  8-years-old. It  also  it  ends  with  a  quotation. Imagine  most  have  recognised  the  quotation. It's  on  the  LP  and  the  film  of the  Woodstock  Festival  from  the  late  60s. The  Saturday  night,  a  big  sort  of rainstorm  came  in  and nearly  wrecked  the  whole  thing. And  it's  a  guy  from  the  Tano  shouted  out. What's  now  the  quotation  of  this  poem. I  think  it's  one  of  the  great signed  bites  of  the  Hippie  dream. So  if  I  can  find  it, this  is  a  poem  called  August  in  Edinburgh. Not  a  cloud  in  the  sky  and  it's  raining. It's  the  brusquness  of  things and  the  drag  of  things  that  hurts. The  most  beautiful  woman  in the  world  is  in  Edinburgh  at  the  festival. She  looks  me  in  the  eye and  says,  Please,  move. I'm  trying  to  look  at  the  artworks. My  doctor  says,  The  heart works,  but  don't  push  it. I  hear  music,  long, familiar  songs,  everywhere  I  go. Pain  is  in  the  mind. Someone  tells Leonardo  Dicaprio  in  Shutter  Island. Everyone  is  rushing,  but the  crowd  moves  slow. Leonardo  can't  get  his  head  around  it. A  man  in  costume  shouts, we've  sold  out  here, holding  his  hat  out  for  money  and  rain. The  mind  is  an  island, and  everyone  is  beautiful, looking  for  something  new  again, but  nothing  connects  and  it's  cold. My  son  sticks  my  phone  charger in  his  ear  and  says, I've  got  an  electric  brain. I've  been  streaming  old  LPs, I  never  thought  I'd  hear  again. Never  thinking  the  old  songs  would  not  work, trying  not  to  work  the  brain, trying  not  to  rise  to the  bait  when  that  long, familiar  voice  rises  from the  damp  and  dismal  crowd  once  again  to  say, Hey,  if  we  all  think  hard  enough, maybe  we  can  stop  this  rain. Thank  you  very  much.  Are  we  okay? Yeah?  Yeah.  Just  32  more  poems  a  go. So  the  decorations  are  up in  the  shops  and  malls, tell  us  Christmas  comments so  get  your  credit  cards  out. This  is  a  poem  about  an  unfortunate  moment  I had  going  Christmas  shopping with  a  tremendous  hangover  one  morning. I  basically  had  this  sort of  outer  body  thing. I  was  in  a  shop  and  saw, you  know,  a  beautiful, famous  actress  All  and  gold  come through  the  crowd  towards me  as  if  to  embrace. And  I  thought,  you  know, I  went  to  hold  my  hands out  and  realised  it  was a  video  advert  for perfume  on  a  flat  screen  on  a  wall. Um,  So  this  is a  poem  very  much about  not  being  one  of  the  three  wise  men. This  is  called  the  Migs  lead  me skulking  through  the  polyvinyl with  and  foster  of  high  street  shops, the  tepid  white  wine  swill of  another  morning  sky. Until  the  fugazi  colours  perturbing  sheen  of One  Store's  video  advert  on  an  HD  screen, open  some  inner  door within  my  hangovers  arm  agon, and  I  enter  a  green  meadow with  Charles  thereon. Yea,  though  I  walk through  the  valley  of  the  shadow  of  death, corrupt,  weary  and  sore. I  still  see  gold  Frankin  sense, Mr  D. Okay.  Nearly  finish. Two  more.  Just  before  I  finish, I'll  try  something  a  little  bit  different. U  back  in  the  day. Go  back  30  years, I've  be  going  to  shoot  in  Dublin  and I  realised  I  decided, I'm  going  to  try this  poetry  thing  for  for  real. I  established  a  whole  load  of  rules. And  it's  interesting  over  time how  I've  broken  every  single  one  of  them. But  I  think  this  was the  last  one  to  be  broken. The  rule  was,  don't  write  tourist  poems or  poems  about  foreign  travels. Of  course,  I  very  much  hoped I'd  get  to  travel  and  see  lots  of  places, but  there  was  something  about  the, I've  been  to  Paris, and  now  I'm  writing  a  poem  about  a  b  that just  ain't  possibly  bourgeois. So  I  said,  N. But  last  year,  I  was  lucky enough  to  spend  some  time  in  Japan, in  particular  I  got  the  chill out  for  a  week  in  Kyoto. And  at  the  end  of  the  day, what's  the  point  of being  a  poet  spending  a  week  in  oto, you  don't  go  write  a  poem  about  it. So  here  we  are. I  stayed  in  a  lovely  hotel. By  a  river.  And  when  I'm  coming  and  going, there  was  a  bird  that  was  always  standing  in the  river  just  outside  the  hotel. This  became  a  nice  little  sort  of homely  thing  when  you're going  out  and  coming  back. I  thought  it  was  a  crane, but  threw  Googling  and  photographs, I  established  later  that  it  was  a  heroin. So  each  day,  I'd  say  hi  to the  heron  and  felt we  had  a  little  bit  of  a  connection. But  as  time  wore  on,  the  heron started  to  freak  me  out  a  bit  because it  really  just  stood there  in  the  blazing  heat  of  the  day, in  the  same  place,  in  the  river, day  in  day  out,  doing  absolutely  nothing. I  was  eventually  a  little  bit,  come  on, do  something,  get  a  hobby.  Let's  go. You  know,  my  little  sense of  connection  became  a bit  ruffled  as  it  were. This  poem  has  another  quotation  in  it. This  one's  from  a  German filmmaker  Werner  Hertzog. A  documentary  called  Grizzly  Man. It's  a  film  as  a  documentary about  a  guy  making a  documentary  about  Grizzlies. He  thought  he  had  a  special  connection with  him  until  one  of  them  at  him. This  poem  is  called  the  amo  River  in  Kyoto. Along  the  amogawa, between  Sancho  Bridge  and  Schizo  Bridge, a  heron  stands  in  the  streams, million  pieces  of  mirror  glinting  movement. A  stock  still  hen. Under  the  motionless  sun, that  could  bake  an  egg, listening  to  the  plash  of  river  trickle. Standing  in  the  surface  shimmer  like an  inscrutable  data  centre surrounded  by  1  million  solar  panels. The  heron  is  still. I  remember  Herzog's  words, I  discover  no  kinship, no  understanding,  no  mercy. I  can  see  only  the overwhelming  indifference  of  nature. Yet  it  stands  a  heron  among  reed  waver, Pot  Puri  shadows  under  Yoshino  cherry  trees. A  light  breeze  flutters. Traffic  awa  Bata. Signal  noise  from  Kia  Mache. The  world  is  changing  in  the  on  flow, and  flux  of  eddy  swirls  standing  motionless, a  hen  between  Sizo  Bridge and  Sancho  Bridge  along  the  amogaa. So  good  news  is. This  is  the  last  point.  Bad  news  is. It's  a  bit  of  athful.  We'll  get  through  it. Thank  you  very  much  for  coming  out. And  listening  hugely. Appreciate  it.  I  hope  it's  been  all  right. We  family,  friends,  colleagues, students  past  present  in  the  crowd, which  is  freaking  me  out  a  bit, I'll  have  to  say. But  I  want  to  say thank  you  very  much  to  all  of  you. It's  been  and  a  privilege. I  know  I'm  not  always  a  walk  in  the  park, but  thanks  for  putting  up  on  me. Hopefully,  there's  lots  of  good  times and  more  poems  ahead, but  this  has  been  a  nice  little  sort  of, you  know,  mark  along  the  way. When  I  saw  coming  up  here  for  a  job, one  of  the  things  was  really keen  on  was  the  way  in  which the  meadows  is  basically  part  of  the  compass. This  does  remain  a  delight. More  and  more. Probably  with  stupendous repetition  and  predictability. I  tend  to  be  writing  poems  about,  you  know, going  to  the  common  green. One  way  or  another. So  I'm  going  to  finish  a  poem  about  going  for a  walk  in  the  park  to  the  meadows, just  out  the  door  from  here. So  thank  you  to  Alex  to  the  school. A,  thank  you  all  very  much  for  coming. I've  got  a  dry  mouth. There's  a  poem  called  Walking  Out one  morning  after  Lock  dye  has  been  lifted. Darkness  everywhere. Night  pervades  then  dies. Now,  curb  sweepers,  bread  vans, and  early  traffic  rumble by  my  window  side  bed  while rain  music  fizzles  in slate  roofs  as  dawn  pours  inside. And  alarm  squawks  that  I must  not  lie  in  my  listening to  telegraph  pole  birds getting  high  over  elms  and  ruins, lifting  into  citrus  burst  skies like  memories  of  songs, but  rise  and  walk this  city  with multi  million  windows  for  eyes. Versions  of  the  world  and time  are  limmed  through  screens, overpaying  with  messages. Data  flutters  through. Whatever  dimension  it  is, data  flutters  through. The  space  within  space. As  I  open  my  door  like a  book  and  walk  past  steam  wands, stretching  hot  foamed  milk  and  cafes, shuttering  shops, skinny  mall  cats  curled  under  fence  posts. The  lamppost  travelogues  of  scent, casting  spells  over  all  sniffing  dogs. Nothing  feels  real  if  it's  not  in  the  net, yet  nothing  on  the  net  feels  real. Now  I  brim  with  yester  years, feeling  virtual  on  this  thoroughfare, walking  into  carbon  debt, and  exhaust  broom  on  compact  streets dwarfed  on  each  side  by  tall  grey  buildings. So  the  traffic's  like  a  two  lane  wide  and trail  up  the  deep  crack  of  rhino's  back  hide. And  onto  grass,  I  go over  the  sluice  signs  of  drain  flow, underground  culverts  into  the  city's  meadows. One  thing  is  for  sure. He  said,  then  he  died. Then  another  and  another. Such  vast  scale,  my  mind  miniature. I  dreamt  I  was  asked  by  a  smart  machine, why  it  shouldn't  pull the  plug  on  human  things. And  all  my  consciousness  could muster  with  spaghetti  emotional  mess. Now,  ping  pong  between  position  and  sense. Onto  grass,  I  go  as  if the  best  way  of  honouring  the dead  is  to  make  the  most  of  living. Ten  gobs, a  humongous  bruise  yellow  anger onto  a  tree  lined  path. And  on  the  grass,  I  go  to  sync  with the  time  zone  of  earth's slow  verbs,  dreaming  names, faint  signals,  green  whispers, wing  singers  and  sycamores, willows,  horn  beams. Free  park  benches  where a  redheaded  businesswoman  in an  ink  blue  suit  eats a  male  de  Wilshire  ham  sandwich under  clearing  heavens, while  sad  shadows  blend  with the  cherry  trees,  ginger  tinged  sunglow. Onto  grass,  I  go, and  I've  made  it  to  the  meadows. You'll  know,  of  course, I  write  this  at  my  desk  in  the  night. These  words  already  processed  by  machine. As  a  cyclist  in  look  at  me,  cra, torpedoes  past,  a  duffel  coated  toddler, who's  learning  new  words, links  with  the  living  and  dead, holding  in  Titchy  hands, a  dandelion,  whose  wind  drifted  seeds  land, their  transk  parachutes  on bitter  cress  and  wild  carrot, while  a  frisbee  glides  past  like a  complex  experiment  on  motion  and  grace. Through  the  tree  leaf  railed  air comes  soft  puck  tennis  sounds. And  I  can't  grasp this  slide  between  phantom  and  rail. But  want  to  ask,  Hey, there,  Smart  Machine,  how  do  you  feel? Hey,  trees.  What  are  you  laughing  at? Two  students  in  beanie  hats with  tot  bags  of  books, sip  from  re  refilled,  hot, Plypropne  cups,  sunlight  in  their  faces. And  yes,  I'm  in  this, whatever  it  is,  this  blue  lift, this  light  page,  this  world  plunge, this  Thank  you  very  much  for  listening. Hares.